I find myself crashing more on this new 3/day Adderall script. I also find I’m more tired in the morning taking Lamictal 2/day. I hate med changes. The Adderall boost in the afternoon helps, but the mid day crashes leave me exhausted and drained.
On the plus side, the extra Lamictal seems to be helping and I feel less depressed. Not sunshine and daisies or anything, but better.
Haven’t posted much because there hasn’t been much to say. I’ve been busy with work and school but generally feeling unmotivated and doing as little as possible to get by with those things. Where I was making 30 calls a day for work, I now make 10 on a good day. I was spending 3+ hours a day on school and now if I spend one I’m lucky. I’m just too tired or something. I can’t muster the energy or ambition to do anything.
Ambition. That’s it. I’m usually such a go getter. It’s like I just don’t care now. I’m unhappy with mediocre results, but want to put in mediocre effort. Clearly a mismatch there. Something needs to give. At some point my grades or income will drop and I’ll be in deep you know what.
Hubby and I are going out next weekend. That should be a nice change of pace. It’s something we really needed. Our anniversary is coming up so it’ll be good to reflect on what went well and what didn’t this year. It’s also a chance to start clean for our next year together.
Look at that. Some optimism. Courtesy of Lamictal. Thank goodness for drug induced happiness.
Hopefully this coming week will bring with it some much needed energy and some serious motivation before things start to go to hell in a hand basket, as my grandmother would have said.